So, as the title suggests, it is official. I am stupid! I can’t help how I am but still…*growls and beats self in head with a Red Vines container* Mike *hit* In *hit* My *hit* Head *hit* All *hit* The *hit* Time! *hithit*
*sigh* I just can’t seem to help it. Every time I talk to him on the phone, I squeal and blush and just feel happy. I am really excited about being able to go down to him in February. I’m kind of hoping that there will still be a little snow and we can cuddle with cocoa! *blush* He is strong and smart and sweet and…and…gah!! *beats self again*
Everything about him draws me in! I mean, it’s just…stupid! I love every moment of it! I love his laugh! I love that he thinks I’m pretty! I love his eyes! I love his fur! I love his smile! I love his freakin’ nose! I am stupid! I am..going crazy without him… *sighs* Every moment away from him is like being away from my pack. And these days, not only am I away from my mate, I am also away from my pack.
Some days I just don’t know what the purpose is…these days have become one dimensional and dull…then he texts me…and I can’t help but want to keep going. Even if it’s just to hear him laugh one more time. Or to hear him say ‘taters! He is just…my version of perfect…
I must admit that there have been a few times when I kind of doubted his honesty but those moments passed quickly. I am almost positive that most of those moments were simply my own insecurity. I, honestly, have no idea what he sees in me. When I look in the mirror, I see a frump girl who will never amount to anything…but he sees someone beautiful…I just don’t know why he would love me. I love him so much that I get scared of I sometimes. I have decided that if he does hurt me, he will be worth it. Any time that I can be with him will be worth any pain that he may cause me, accidental or otherwise.
I am 99% sure he would never hurt me intentionally and I know that as soon as I can hold him in my arms then I will be 200% sure. *chuckles* That’s right! 200%!!!
Well, thanks for reading! Until next time…~C’est la vie!~
